Comfortably Numb

Relax.
I need some information first.
Just the basic facts:
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I cant explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.

(Pink Floyd: Comfortably Numb - Crazy warped music that makes sense at times - Amazing guitar pieces. The Pink Floyd stuff, is all very OTT, but you know sometimes its just good to hear some of that shit, their lyrics are amazing - OTT, but amazing!)

So after beating myself up about issues that are klapping me from all angles, I decided to take the proverbial bull by the horns and do something about it.

I picked up the phone and phoned some people that I had with work, its amazing what a bit of transparency and honest achieve. My mind is a little more at rest, and what will be will (whilst always keeping your eye on the prize - whatever the fuck that means - I heard some dude saying it at the beach this morning). On that beach note, a good dose of exercise, clears away the cobwebs, re-energizes the mind and gets things in perspective.

We (or I) get lost in the emotions that the world pushes onto you, my problem is that I care too much about doing the right thing. I cant just do something (take the bucks) and not care about the consequences and tell the consequences to go get bent. I am honest, I care, I want to be transparent...BUT (a big one), there are a whole heap of dirty pirates that don’t have these moral values, they just rip the ground from under you, tell you to grow up and push off. To all of you, the big wheel turns, it turns slowly but it turns.

So I have been listening to some Pink Floyd lately, such introspective stuff, its awesome, comfortably numb, that’s been my mood lately. I can feel the cloud lifting and the sun shining through, all these feeling are totally mental (brought on by my need for perfection), these feeling of feeling like poor shall pass. We cant be happy shiny all the time, if you are, you are over the edge craaazzeee.

WOW, enough of this... my new abode is going to be finished tomorrow, I will be a overgrown kid with his new house, with patio I might add, I can stomp around my little patch and do what I want. So cool, so exciting.