Monday, April 14, 2008
Madness of Love!
Some of the saddest things in the world all start off with love, a whole lot of it, thats why if it ends it is sad. So you need the love to have the sadness...
This last w/end, I took GF off to a fancy hotel, dinner the whole shabang, and all we did was end up fighting, it was so bad I felt like cotching, just to do something else. My brain, felt like it was being stretched over a hot fire, and poked with barbed wire! I plan, spend all this money and it all falls apart, and the saddest part of all, no one is to blame. The relationship has just run its course, I think we still love each other, or the idea, no one has cheated, no one has lied, we just cant stop fighting, over everything. We are different people, that love each other and are killing each other emotionally.
We are on a break right now, its so fucking sad. When you fight like we have been, the emotional strain of the relationship pervades every part of your life, and its all you can think about.
I just dont want to see GF for a while, becuase I know if I do, we are just going to fight, and the worst thing in the world is that we were the happiest love struck (you want to puke on your shirt) in love! Now we just hate each other...
This sucks, cause I know that we have to break up for real, and we have to do it knowing that no one is to blame, knowing that we gave it our best shot, knowing that we have start again in the whole dating game. I think its easier when you find out your partner is screwing someone else (or something like that), so you can just hate them and tell them to piss off.
Well, this just sucks, the person I used to tremble at the thought of seeing, I dont want to be near.